My life’s journey

TGIF, I thought friday will nvr come. =-< I’m bored. Freakin’ bored. Hopefully 2moro will b fun. I’m going to my co-workers baby shower then after that dinner at Boston’s at the Beach in Delray. I hope they have a good live music 2moro. After that, I simply don’t know. I’m up 2 anything. Maybe drinking but my friends are going home to the Philippines the nxt day. I think drinking is out. Perhaps dancing. I think that’ll b good but I do 1nt a martini.

I’ve been dreaming about this guy for two days now and it’s a bit strange for me. He appeared twice for two nights now and I wonder why. First day- after attending a funeral, I saw him. Then, he gave me flowers…two stalks of white orchids. We sat down and held hands for a lil’ bit then a friend came so he sat across the table and said nothing. Both of us are quiet. Second day, we were at a wedding inside a church. I was a bridesmaid and he was a groomsmen. As I look towards the groomsmen, I saw him drinking a bottle of beer(not sure if it’s a bud or miller). The wedding started and as I glanced back at him, he wasn’t there anymore. The weird thing about this guy is I know him and he knows me.

Hmmm, nothing…it seems like an emo blog but nahhh. Nweiz, I’m in deep trouble now coz the other day I bought a whole bag of plain M&M’s chocolate(my fave). I’m afraid I have to eat it ev’ryday esp. when I’m in front of my PC. I’m sooo bad. Well, any diet that lets me eat chocolate is a diet for me! Sounds familiar? One more day and it’s the weekend already but I’m working this Saturday. Ooo, I need to go 2 PSL 2 check on Ate Em’s house to see if it’s still there.hehehe. Who wants to go 2 PSL with me?

At some point I don’t feel that things are the same anymore. Everything has changed since I got back from the Philippines. I have been staying home a lot. I have been meeting up with friends only if they call and if they want to hang out. But I do miss two of my friends here, Jenn & Che. God knows when was the last time we saw each other. Maybe weeks or more than a month now but for me it feels like years. Wow! I don’t know. I just miss our wacky times and drama times. I wonder how they’re doing right now? Maybe the reason is just we’ve been busy with a lot of things. Each is doing her own thing.>sigh<

Another rainy day outside the sunshine state…>yawn< makes me wanna go to sleep>yawn<. Anyways, Monday..hmmm…oh yeah it was a one hell crazy Monday @ work. It’s a good thing I’m ok with it. I mean, I can feel the rush comin over me with all the stress that I had this morning. It’s a good thing too coz it made the day go by sooo fast on a wet and dreary day. Honestly, I like this kind of weather. I don’t know. I’m just weird that’s all…hehehe. Another thing, I was searching about stocks and mutual funds. Man, it made me dizzy just looking those portfolios they have like YTD, Net Asset, Holdings, etc, etc,etc. Yup, I’m into investing right now. Well, I’m just a beginner but hopefully I’ll be a successful investor and an entrepreneur. Now, where’s that computer science fits into this?

Here I am in my room writing this blog. I don’t even know why…oh w8… now I know. I just need to let out my emotinons and this blog is the only way I can let it out. Here it goes….I want to talk to you but I can’t. I can’t do this to myself any more. I must forget you and all the memories you gave me. Because I’ve noticed that whenever we talk, memories are coming back. And it hurts so much. Pain that I can’t bear anymore. That I can’t ignore anymore. It ’s still there. It’s like you’re stabbing me more than twice. So I have to stop. I must. It’s hard but I must stop…It’s the only way.

First of all I’d like to greet all d fathers out there a Happy Father’s Day! Ok, so here’s what I did 2day. I went out with my family to see my bro Levi and his band do their thang @ Revolution in Fort Lauderdale, FL. I think my eardrums were broke when the first band played coz of all the shouting d vocalist did. Anyways, Horizon Fall (d name of my bro’s band) played third. Honestly, they played good. I mean really really good. I’m very impress and proud of my bro. Thankfully I can still hear…hehehe. To cut my blog short…coz I’m really sleepy…ladies and gentlemen out there pls. check out their profile @ www.myspace.com/horizonfall and you will get a taste of their rockin’ songs. Hope y’all like it. Please pray 4 them that they will make it big in the music industry. I know they will.

By the way, I’m happy that u left me…I’m so glad u hurt me…it’s a magical feeling knowing that ur not meant 4 me.

I’m so bored. Looks like ev’rybody’s busy but me. No phone calls, no txt msgs, no ym’s and no msgs in friendster =( Well, I just hope ev’rybody’s doing fine and happy. Anyways, there’s a lot of things going on in my life since I went home. I’m thinking of having a small business here maybe a jewelry business but I don’t know where to start. I’ve already checked out some websites but still I have no clue how to do it. And there’s another thing, I think my parents wants to have a bed and breakfast business in Tagaytay. That’ll be cool. Now, I’m researching on it. And if that will happen there’s a possibility (after I’m done what I suppose to do here in the US), I’ll go home for good and run the B&B. I hope ev’rything that I’m planning to do right now is possible. Of course, it should start from me. So I need actions. NOW!

I know it was dis past tuesday but the things is I thought this would be "the Omen day". Something weird happened on dis day. Well, I don’t know…perhaps for you dis is funny. I just noticed on "Omen" day a lot of cracks were being shown on the road. I mean I was driving to drop off my friends coming from d Wellington mall and all of a sudden I saw 2 cracks (as far as I know, dats how many I counted). It’s like "Whaddahell! Why are there so many cracks on the road l8ly? I know it’s hot in Florida but d’ya have 2 show it? The humanity..People!." I know you’re wondering what I’m talking about. BUTT CRACKS. Yeah. I think 6/06/06 was a BUTT CRACK day. Or maybe it’s was 1 of d signs of Omen. Oh well, just a thought. =p

Love—>the more I don’t want it, the more I need it.